I enjoy looking at bare breasts in the change room at my gym. I do it brazenly, out of curiosity. I am constantly amazed by how many women have breast implants these days, especially women who appear to be in their early 20s. These young ladies shelled out a lot of money (whether their cash or somebody else’s), undergoing the risks and pain of surgery simply to make their breasts look larger. Continue reading
I have been bursting into tears at regular intervals. Sometimes it’s full-out sobbing when I am alone, like last night when I was writing this post. At other times, my throat wells up and a few tears trickle out in public, including right before I taught my first class last week. Did my students notice my trembling voice? Did the woman who served me an Edo Japan lunch remark on my puffy eyes? Did anyone taste salty tears in the dish I brought to the welcome back pot luck? I usually hide my emotions, but this time it is impossible. I am heartbroken. Continue reading
Since moving to a new city a few months ago, my fitness routine — and my life in general — has drastically changed. And not for the better. After the dust of moving settled, I have simply been astounded at the rampant misogyny that exists here. I was going to say I was “culture shocked,” but that’s too polite. It’s not culture shock. It’s pure old-fashioned sexism. Continue reading
Time to be honest!
I’ve been in a funk friends. Down and out. Been full of self-doubt, having anxiety attacks for no reason and just generally unhappy. In the beginning I thought it was related to my body image issues. I’m training hard, eating well (maybe too well) but feel like I’m getting fatter. I feel disgusting. It’s frustrating. I want to live like a happy, fit lady who doesn’t have to follow a restrictive diet to look good. I guess that’s too much to ask. Anyway, that’s another rant. Continue reading
The other day my 12-year-old daughter pointed to her legs, stating that she “needed to do something about them.” When I questioned her, she said that she wished to gain muscle in order to have toned legs. My daughter is quite slim and about 5’10 inches tall, with long legs. She already plays soft ball and takes swimming lessons. How should I respond to her desire for muscular legs? Continue reading